Life Shattering Part 7

'Holy shit...' Ashton commented as she held my hair back as I puked once again.

'This is bullshit!' I exclaimed, whilst my guilt and shame had subsided, the morning sickness had kicked in full throttle.

'Do you even remember anything?' Ashton asked as she rubbed my back and handed me a glass of water.

'Oh yeah... Stephen Leece and I used a rubber. I woke with a start the other night and remembered that he tore the packet off with his teeth, spat it out and well... yanno.' I said, my face going red.

'So you are down to two?' Ashton said, handing me a cool compress for my forehead.

I nodded, sipping the water and shaking my head. The shame washed over me like I was laying on a beach and a wave had crashed in.

I patted Ashton's own baby belly and gave her a smile.

'I'm excited that I'll be doing this with you sis...' I said, 'If there is anything good I can take out of this... well... that would be it!'

Ashton smiled and gave me a hug.

'Beth... you are going to be a Mommy again. Again...'

It dawned on me. She was right.

I'm going to have a newborn in the house again. Holy... shit.

Was I really doing the right thing?