I woke up this morning, to realise that John had taken the kids out for a walk. Bleary-eyed, into the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror. The evidence of my poor judgment and horrible decisions made itself known.
My stomach was slightly swelled.
This was really, truly happening. I was going to live with this mistake for the rest of my life and look at it grow inside me for the next eight months.
A few people have asked me why I wasn't carrying condoms. Well, to be fair - I was, I just hadn't realised I had run out. Because of the sheer amount of people that I was hanging around with in London, I (and others) missed the fact that I was ovulating.
'Beth you are old enough to know better!' A friend scolded at me. And she was right, I do and I've hurt so many people with my completely reckless, think-less actions.
Maybe one day, I'll stop hating myself. Tomorrow at least, I'll see my sister. I need some cuddles from her.
Open Fire. I wish I could just sleep for a million years and this would've be completely over.
About Me
- Beth C
- Mother. Wife of Neil. Member of the punk rock band Delicious Liaisons.
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